Challenge, Journey, Purpose, Hope, and Justice.
Challenge is a hard word. When I was younger, I got teased a lot by my friends, family, and cousins. I was called “fat,” “stupid,” and a few other things that I don’t want to remember. I was sexually abused and then I was spanked by my mom, who said that I shouldn’t do that until I was married or grown up. I still don’t understand what to do about that, even now. When Dad died, I knew something was not right in me. Even Mom saw it. I seemed to get more and more angry with her. Then when Mom died, things just started to go downhill. A year or two later, I became homeless. This is where the challenge comes in.
The Journey is what I am going through now. I am getting better than where I was five years ago. I am looking for an apartment and a little dog in a year or two. I love dogs.
The Purpose is now to stay better than where I was, and to get even better from where I am now. There is a lot I want to do: travel, talk to people, do things I like to do, such as bake, crafts, knitting, needlepoint, and other things.
Hope is one of the most important words. I am hoping to get to know myself like God knows me, to understand my life and my family, to find the good. I also hope to meet my birth mother someday.
There are a lot of questions I have, and many answers I seek. She said it was too late, but it’s not too late to me. One way or another, I hope to meet her.
Justice is one of the last important words that I have thought about: Justice for me, for a better life, knowing that I am “getting it”. I am getting justice now by writing my story.
Never give in to the bad things in life. Always think of what it is like when the good and hope come back.